sooo happy.

supp blogspot!

last day of testing today. . .
today was pretty boring yet really chill but i was unusually hyper. during our two hour long third period, i watched kevin session inside the pageantry room. hes soo sick and intricate with his moves.. freals.. never realized how good of a dancer he is and plus ive known him since middle school.
tried to session with moses but he was all like "i need to be faded in order to dance". blahblah, aha.. oh well. i wna get better at dancing. tehehe :]
hung out with bryan, michiyo, and lidia at lunch. lidia was being extra mean to me without justin by my side. bryan and michiyo decided that the mochis dont exist anymore. stupid drama happening with my group of friends but i refuse to involve myself in it. i hate when people sacrifice their social life in order to get attention. oh well , , soo much to say about people right now but ill keep it to myself.
denng junior year is almost over,, wsup!

plans for summer

-chill from 93 til!
-catch up with brothers from walnut
-soul sister / soul brother bonding time.
-practice singing/dancing?
-jerking.rules.everything.around.me
-hang out with buddyman.
-TM workshop?
-beach trip . . 10 deep!
-find a job . .
-seaworld w/ just_ez, aimee maps main attraction masiclat, and KC bambi dearskin ondevilla.
-tennis match ?! LMAO.
-get in touch with san diego cousins.
-Krishaaa's debut in late august. = EPICCCCCC cali cousins & new york cousins collab. :] wsuhh culture clash.
-the senior yeaaaar! whoaa, wsupp decade.

im psyched . . . . . . . . . . :]

spring break LATE.

spring break was chill for the most part. chilled with gary & jream mostly.
the weekend was probably the highlight of the whole spring break.
i spent a full day with anniely in san diego which was quite fun.
except for the fact that i felt like aimee and kc from chula vista were ignoring me. we were there for annie's show choir performance. finally caught up with rosenda from chula vista after like 2 months. umm i had a 1on1 gibberish sesh with her! too bad justin wasnt there which i felt bad about. i had to repark annie's car while she was getting ready to perform with her show choir: pacifica encore. ehh we talked for the whole day which was actually quite entertaining. so annie drove back home to her house in garden grove. i picked up my car and left to go home. on the way, i was hallucinating so much because i was so tired. but i got home safely without any accidents. texted annie goodnight and then fell asleep!

saturday was some what boring. went to justins house for a few and then ended up picking up cristine from church. turns out that it was the day of youth rally which didnt seem as hyped out as the years before. we went to frank & sons and then stcostco. all the while, we were waiting for bryan to get done with his performance in corona. we went to church while we waited for bryan to arrive home so he could accompany us to san diego. met up with soul sister marie and best friend uhleesuh! took some pictures with cristines leg1t camera. met up with marvyn and rich surprisingly.. rich tried showing me a buck bang which i didnt pick up. met new people and such which makes me want to attend next years youth rally. last time i staffed for a youth rally was back in my freshman year. it was extremely fun and uplifting. bryan ended up bailing so me and justin left right away to get to go to san diego for show choir's biggest competition: socal. it just so happens to be hosted by chula vista where aimee, kc, and rosenda go. me and justin ended up bumming around the west field mall where socal was being held looking for something to do. finally aimee called us and we hung out for like 6 minutes. then me and justin had to find parking around downtown san diego which took like 35 minutes. finally we found a place to park and we started jerking. these two guys came across us and said "this is grade A humorous entertainment". -__- LOL. i guess! they started watching us jerk and left after 3 minutes. we called aimee and kc and told them that we wanted to hang out so they were down. we ended up picking them up and heading towards chula vista. the car ride was fun and probably the other highlight of my spring break. soo funny , ,
picking on kc and aimee and guilt tripping them. telling them how they never have time to hang out whenever we come up. dedicating slow sexy R&B songs to them.
KC: wow these two are in the mood to make babies tonight.
arrived at KC's house and then we tried having a quick jerk sesh. we tried teaching aimee and kc but they werent willing to learn. :[
serenaded aimee after we dropped off KC ! aha . . sang shawty is a 1o. parked in the middle of aimee's street and unloaded her stuff from my trunk. me and justin gave her a cute present. we showed her our costumes and such.. she asked us to change into them. -___-
LOL,, well yeah.. we left aimee's and then headed towards rowland heights. the car ride home was pretty fun as well. me and justin fcking around and making up lyrics. the usual. hehe.

lame blog post.

tuesday thoughts

so i went through previous posts in my blog and i realized that i was so into life back then. i guess you can say that i kind of toned down..? dont get me wrong, im still satisfied with life but just not as much.

im really missing the people that impacted my sophomore year sincerely.
steven agdeppa- although we didnt TALK all the time the way me and my closer friends this year talk, i still considered him as a close one. someone who i could vent to on the spot or just someone i can just feel comfortable around. i miss our 1on1 sessions after school every other friday. he taught me that gay people arent so bad and that being gay doesnt mean that theyre not into other things that guys are interested in.
i distinctly recall my first time trying out for show choir worrying about dancing more than singing. i was extremely stiff with my body meaning i didnt know how to DANCE. i couldnt even get down the first 8 counts of the dance audition. i glanced at steven with frustration and right away he came over to aid me. we recapped the dance with me struggling from the first step to the last. he ran it with me twice and told me "you're already improving for your first time dancing. . . just keep practicing the steps".
&newsflash to my audition this year for show choir next year.. i thought i did really well . and my choreographer recommended me as a dance captain? aha, even though i dont think im going to run for that position it left me flattered. soo shoot, i guess without steven helping me audition two years ago, i probably wouldnt have stuck to show choir.

Blackberry messenger.

me: steven, have you left for germany yet?
steven: hey alfie I miss you no we leave on Friday I have rehearsal all this week.
me: ohh can you fit in an hour? or something. I wna see you before you leave.
noo homo, thouggh. who knows, it might be the last time ever seeing him since hes so caught up with his tours and such.

i think its shocking how fast time has gone by. sometimes i dont realize that im a junior.. and that my brother is 21 years old. not even that, but the fact that im turning 17. im still stuck in my elementary days where everything was so stress free while my whole family looked after me. or me and my cousin jonas being labeled in the family as the black sheep causing trouble with our grandpa and grandma. but its all coming into play now since my brother has no time for me.. well not to be selfish.. but the family as well. last time he visited, we didnt even have a traditional get together with our group which consisted of my sister & my two older cousins.

i guess you can say im kinda sick of everything &im living in the past right now. dont take it the wrong way though, im just some what depressed .

are we living in a dream world?

"Are we living in a dream world?
Are your eyes still green girl?
I know your sick and tired of arguing
But you can't keep it bottled in
Jealousy, we got to swallow it
Your heart and mind baby follow it
Smile, happiness you could model it
And when you feel opposite
I just want you to know
Im going to do the best I can do
Cause i'm the best when i'm with you. "

1 more argument FTW. IG! :]

weekend!

umm the past weekend was kind of a burn but at the same time it was pretty fun.

friday - went to fullerton jazz festival right when i woke up.. without having to go to school. we had a really good crowd so our performance was pretty awesome.. well i would say so myself. i held open the door for the next performing group and they were so hyped up about how amazing we were. although we didnt place in the competition, it made me feel good inside knowing that people thought we were greaaaat.
gary, louis, justin, bryan, tam, and tj, and i went to subway to get some food and so the girls from Esperanza High School saw us sessioning outside afterwards. they came outside and started admiring us? lmao, pretty funny. they were like "whats jerking?" tehehe.
we went back to the festival and met up with moses. we started up a session with real music and shii. these 2 random black guys had a battle while moses and me instigated it. pretty sick, moses wanted me to get off but i didnt. dunno why? haha, im kinda hesitant.. plus i dont get down sick w/ it.
later that night i went to sadies with my date ruzanne. she looked all cute ,, i guess. :]
umm but it was pretty whack by the end of the night. whack b1tches, freals. whack cock blocks, blah. so i met up with annie, carla, justin, and cristine. i had a 1on1 talk with annie which was chill because i felt like we were just talking on the phone.. the only difference was that she was right there next to me.

saturday - woke up to gary's call asking me if i was ready. so lucky that he called me or else i wouldve slept in. so i got there right when the bus was leaving. i sat next to ashleypark, and helped hold her mirror while she applied her make up. i fed her the other half of my mcdonalds and yeah. we got to burroughs and got ready to perform right away. probably one of my worst performances because i spent so much time thinking about my unhooked vest. my vest unhooked while i was dancing.. and i spent like one number trying to connect it back together. oh well, its over now. then i watched anniely and pacifica encore perform. i actually liked their show and set.. despite the fact that i was influenced to believe it was lame. afterwards, i just chilled with anniely & others. thought it would be a 1on1 but i guess not. hehe, so i just went off and tried to entertain myself with other people. i eventually got bored of everything around me so i just rested on the benches.
turns out that we didnt place in the competition.. everyone was sad on the bus. i was pretty pissed too since ashley was mad at me. oh well... i ended up coming back to the competition with gary, bryan, and justin. we ran into aimee and kc there.. which was funny. me and justin showed them how we play softball. we met more people like crystal.. yeah! it was fun though.. highlight of my weekend. frreals.

sunday - hung out with anniely @ disneyland. she took away my disneyland CA adventure virginity. shessss chill. tehehe. k im done.

april fools day

daze have been going by awfully fast; in time ill be a senior. :O
during my elementary years, i would always avoid the sidewalk where most of the high schoolers would walk.
walking home with frank, will, and marcos was a daily thingg. then we would head over to the park right after we dropped off our backpacks at home. &then walking home all sore at night after playing long hours of basketball. yeah. . . . i used to play basketball.

well today i went shopping in melrose for sadies on friday. i kind of have an idea of what im gna wear.. so i think im fine. cristine and justin accompanied me on the long journey out on the 60 freeway. whenever i take a freeway, its usually the 57 towards garden grove or disneyland. but i actually prefer the 57 over the 60. 6o stays traffic.. all day everyday.
im pretty boring. maybe when im inspired to write, ill write something meaningful.

ive been watching hey arnold.. my all time favorite cartoon.
basically, arnold likes leila.. but leila doesnt feel the same way.

leila: -- after all thats happened between us.. when im really honest with myself.. i dont like you like you. i just like you.
arnold: youre dumping me arent you?
leila: not in so many words. its cause i really admire you and i treasure our friendship. the last thing id ever want to do is hurt you.
arnold: i understand . . .
leila: we still can be good friends can't we?
arnold: sure leila.

i guess this is the update that everyone has been asking for. x]