stargazing :D

this girl has a hold on me. i visited her on sunday night and we started talking on her driveway. i leaned back and accidentally overlapped her hand with mine. we talked more and so we started holding hands while we gazed up @ the sky. i decided to get closer because it was cold and she was shivering. we basically cuddled on her driveway till 11' .. it was so coold that night. gaaaah,

i think i like her.

missss you dad.

stuck,
i am stuck,
am i stuck? stuck i am.

iono, life is just soo ehhhh! my high school years have gone by and ive seen myself change in so many ways. ive grown up and past the immature obstacles.. and hardships.

i remember when i answered a question that asked "have you ever experienced a death in the family?" with "no"..
i remember when i went to the 08 confirmation retreat.. that didnt really phase me. the climax was when we sat in a room with someone presenting worse case scenarios about the people that we love the most. we imagined as if they died right before our eyes, without telling our true feelings. without telling them that we love them all.
i remember riding in my dads truck with my dad trying to start "small talk" with me. we never really talked about much due to our extremely passive personalities. just getting back from the confirmation retreat, i thought about telling my dad that i love him. i hesitated and backed myself away from the thought.
i remember when my dad would try to teach me how to solve problems in math and i'd be half asleep.. frustrated because i wouldn't be able to understand the complete steps of the simple math.
later my sophomore year, my dad passes away. i sat at his bed side, trying to find the right words: i love you. i struggled soo much just saying it to him.. sadly he wasnt even in a stable condition to receive it. &now, math doesnt even make sense to me anymore. sometimes i wish my dad was there just to see me work and help me on the problems that i wouldnt understand. i really do miss my dad.. and im still in denial that hes really gone.

hi ashley. :]

"well i think its important that you know that I love you as a best friend and you really do mean a lot to me..."

wowow, no one has ever told me that before<3

-holiday follies.
-flirting is fun.
-crushing sucks.
-frank and sam<3
-jj<3 came late to my show.
-best friend is emotional every day.
- kissing? uhh, haha.
-holding eachother backstage is the business<3
- holidays!

disneyland!

mm disneyland was fun.

-umm tried rapping with moses in the morning while waiting for the tram. ehh haha! hes not that great.
-went on pirates of the carribean with bryan, michiyo, ashley, zach, cassie, and rachel. michiyo was scared of the pirates :D haha, so cute.
-me and bestie argued whos dominant while holding hands! LOL.
-we tried embarassing eachother at disneyland but she ended up winning because she walks like she has a penis between her legs.
-me, ashley, michiyo, and bryan hung out together.. only for like 10 minutes. thats the group we intended to have but zach kept coming back to our group.
-we tried ditching him after the show, so i hung out with tj.
-me, tj, erika, and kiara started hanging out. /
-i was supposed to meet up with bryan michiyo and ashley later.
-i rode haunted mansion with erika.. we argued most of the ride. LOL, shes so funny.
-i left to go back with ashley michiyo and bryan.. and turns out ashley was mad at me because she thought i ditched her :[
-we argued then i made it up to her by getting her a free disneyland birthday pin.
-holding hands is funny.
-we ended up taking a lot of pictures.. to end the day. i wish the mochis = ashley, michiyo, bryan, and i couldve hung out all day.. but i guess not :[
- it was an okay day.. not the way i wanted it to happen.
-i ended up walking home czarina home.. because she had no ride. she looked sooooo sad :[ i hate seeing people sad.
-well yeah, it was kinda perfect the way it happened. walking home a girl on a december 1st? :D during winter! with houses decorated with christmas lights all around.
- ate out with gary, zach, bryan, and tam at dennys. fck i was so full.
- ehh.. missing school today. too tired!
- i have practice later.

-erikas b day party last night. it was fun.. me, bryan, and tj were the last ones at her house sadly :[
none of her close girl friends came over so we just kept her company till like 1 o' clock in the morning. i felt bad for her!
i feel fatter than ever. uhh,
-new kids show today! i want to ride with boba but i think im gna ride with ate michiyo!
-disneyland on monday.. i want to have fun. so fck big ass groups!
me+ashley+michiyo+bryan = mochi bonding time. hopefully :] but i think other people are gna join our group.
iono why, i just hate big groups so much.
-rhio cant come to my show because our friday show was canceled and moved to sunday.
- i think sam hates me.
- hopefully the brothers will come to our show. but i doubt it'll be any good :[
- this better not be a bad holiday show.
- i cleaned my plugs.. they smelled like shit.
- DL test is coming up.. i better pass.

well, so much to look forward to.. nothing @ all to look forward to. HI LIFe!

-play date w/ the bestie @ disneyland? lmao!<3
-performance. wild n' out around disneyland.
-umm hung out with the brothers and shiii. jj almost killed us 2 times. i stretched my ears by 2 sizes. shit hurt.
-my ears were bleeding this morning.
-holiday follies is coming up soon. 5th, and 6th.
-frank, sam, jj, and nick's holiday show is coming up too.
-i need to maintain my grades.. shoot. fck chemistry and alg. 2
-life is chills. :]

hi feelings. :]

so iono how to feel, knowing that you just hung out with the girl you liked for a whole year. sure i was a bit awkward.. and my words were unclear.. but i really didnt feel anything the way i did when i was a sophomore..
aha, i remember when i used to get esctatic before 3rd period choir last year.. just because i knew i was gna see her. tehehe, hi jennie! if youre reading this.

well g'nite! ill update later. :]

halloween o9 :D

Oct. 29th, 2008

dear ashley,
hi, bestie. tehehe.

today was fine until lunch when i suddenly became weak all over my body. i think i was just lacking rest, but thats like the weakest ive ever been at school. i dragged myself to 6th period getting daniela's stuff from my locker. after french, i had to take an english benchmark -________- . that drained so much out of me; luckily it was multiple choice.
sonny called me during class so i got all excited thinking him and steven were visiting but i guess not. i texted him and he texted back saying that he wanted to say "hi". they always pull that sh1t on me. oh wells, i understand that theyre busy all week. and last time i hung out with them, i was extremely gloomy.
well, i chilled with eyen and stupid nicole (vivian) after school for like a second. -____- nicole's friend was acting all comfortable with me and i was just like "wtf, i dont even know you". iono why, but i hate when people act all comfortable with me when they dont even know me.. but on the contrary im the guy that would go up to random people and act like i know them.
like how me and ashley walk through the hallways trying to see who knows more people. obviously me, but shes in denial. <3 EH, and i try to wave at random people to get extra popularity points. hella people wave at me like "wtf?" face expression. its actually entertaining.

well i went home.. and i ended up ordering pizza for me and the cousins. UMM so JENGA MASTER SAM calls me and im like why would she call me right now.. so i answer and jj is like "GET OF YOUR HOUSE NOW! DONT ASK QUESTIONS" LOL. silly jj<3
but yeah, frank, jj, samantha, and lauryn are like waiting outside my house. BLAH, and my house is hella ghetto. whatever, but everyone came rushing into my house! haha, so yeah.. i was just like EHH! but it was nice seeing my favorites from walnut. :]
so we talked.. JJ was all calling me "the biggest pussy" @ knotts scary farm. LOLLLL, which in fact he was the one that was squeezing the shit outta me and frank because he was so scared. &screaming like a little gherl. and gay ass frank was telling lauryn and sam how 20 YEAR OLD girls were all over me during the maze @ knotts scary farm. LMAO. he overexaggerated it so much. -__- they were like our age not 20! and only 2 were on me. they made it sound like a whole group of girls were holding me. and the pizza man came.. and i greeted him all awkwardly. LOL, and then he started flirting with lauryn and sam!
lauryn and sam = JJ's gherls.
Jeric Joel Devela (JJ) = pimp. its kind of a known fact. but yeaaaah,,

that was the highlight of my day.. even though they stayed for like 30 minutes.. haha, all good! i like surprise visits.

well solo day is tomorrow para choir!
i thought she knew - nsync?
no one - alicia keys?

haha, i hate my voice. :X

WELL BYE. :]

thoughts as of right now

i was hoping to live throughout a chill junior year, but here i am already stressing about chemistry and algebra 2. only if these two subjects would make more sense to me.
i wish everything was just second nature like the smart nerdy asian kids that sit to my right in algebra 2. oh wells, i dont mess with stereotypes. :]
haha,

but ahh, i desire a life that just flows like a tranquil river disregarding its surroundings -___- . but as of right now, its not. its something that i have to live through with many responsibilities to handle as well. soo shoot!

well peaceeasy. <3

Oct. 27th, 2008

today i...

went to all my classes,
had a fire drill and hung out w/ erika, bryce, brittney, bbycece, and probably other people,
had my first tenor sectional learning tenor harmonies for christmas music,
i had most of my harmonies on lock compared to most of the other tenors which is pretty good for me only knowing bass harmonies :],
and the rest of the school day was a whatever. nothing too exciting!

i treated my cousin and my sister to ohana bbq. im hella full now :X
halloween is coming soon. :]
im not gna dress up but im down tooooo kick it! tehehe.

touch a life performance

today started off the same way i start off every saturday. i usually wake up extra early breaking the teenager tradition of sleeping in on a saturday morning. even though i woke up extra early, i still didnt realize that Rowland was having it's annual parade: Buckboard Parade. I didnt hear shii from my house which is close to the busy street: Colima.
so i ended up not going to the chord group outing because the buses werent running. i found myself contemplating on the fact that the only people from the group were lidia, derek, mervyn, and TJ. And i wasn't trying to go on another date with lidia because shes probably gna get all freaked out and think i like her again. so i was very hesitant causing me to walk up and down otterbein trying to resolve my undecided conflict. i ended up asking a random person if the buses are running and he told me about the buckboard parade which i totally forgot about. thats when i realized that we had a parade this morning.. but real talk, the streets looked like nothing out of the unordinary.
it was a long day preparing for the touch a life performance. i ended up chilling with jovan, ej, bryan, tam, dj, and louis at in n out. jovan's car smelled like straight up bud.. haha, and he tried covering it up. i still noticed the distinct smell.
i arrived at the church at about 6:00. i sat next to erika during the performance.. and im really digging our friendship. :]
ahaha, im hella mean to her but then i always make up for it by hugging her or something else. damnn, iono she was all trying to hold my hand in church saying "warm my hands, theyre cold!" trying to lock a grip on my warm SOFT hands. HAHA, but i just looked at her all weird playing hard to get. well i brought the heat afterwards. :] lmao!
but i dont wna like a girl right now.. on the real.
sitting next to her and talking was probably the highlight of my day. i was kinda surprised of our performance today because i thought we would be extra shitty.. which all the choirs would beg to differ with us.
i ended up eating at dennys with a bunch of random people that i usually wouldnt hang out with. it was okay despite the fact that our bill was like 80 dollars and no one could pay it off.. and i only bought 2 drinks so i really had no responsibility to pay it. we also sang to the waiter "cmon everybody.." and i was so into it. lmao! i <3 our choir group this year.. we're pretty outgoing which makes life more fun. :]

WELL if either jj or frank is reading this.. i hope you guys arent fighting. :[
peaaaaaace out!

chill friday!<3

i havent blogged in a while but damnn a lot has happened. let me recap real quicck!

homecoming - umm pretty okay for the most part. i danced with choir people and other girls besides my date. i went out of my way to bring out the car that night and my date didnt even want to take pictures or go do something fun. :[
she left me on the dance floor like 3 times to go text on her phone.. and i felt obligated to attend to her needs. i shoulda went stag. oh.. crisselle and lidia, my date, were wearing the same dress! what a coincidence. :D
i got bad vibes thinking that she was just avoiding me. well by the end of the night, i gave her a lion plushie that i bought while i was in philadelphia. ehh i call her "lidia the lion!" cause her last name is de leon.. and its quite similar. haha.. so i felt pretty dismal for the past 2 weeks. and to top that, i felt like shes been neglecting me ever since homecoming.

supp friday. :]
umm it was chill! i aced my vocab test.. like almost positive that i got a 100%. :D my english grade is slowly fluctuating from a C to a B-. :] im putting in work for my grades. all i have to do is do well in math and chemistry. fckk, junior year is getting stressful. blaah, well im gna stick to staying solo and just talking to cute gherls. im not gna try.. fck it. haha, ive got shit to worry about and gherls are the last thing im gna contemplate on. well me and lidia are talking now.. things are less awkward and we're actually acting the way that we did back in late august. kinda.. not entirely.
erika is fun to be with.. supposedly my siamese twin in the hallways. we're conjoined at the elbows.. HA. we basically kinda lean on each other while we walk so its kinda awkward getting by everyone. we got this love&hate thing going on. i wna do a duet with her on "the way i am" by ingrid michaelson. heh, i needa step up my singing.. and become a better soloist.
after school, i chilled w jeanelle for a quick second having to comfort her because of her boyfriend, reginator. danng, i hate seeing my closest friends down.. but sometimes i cant help but just be passive about it because im horrible with advice. after, i met up with halie, "girlfriend", and zach. we took home louis in halie's soccer mom van. :]
halie reminded me of how much i really miss the alumnis.. well i was in a for a treat, because a lot of the alumni were at the school. so we drove back to rowland to greet judy happy birthday and to see angel, steven, and sonny. they had little to say which upset me in a way because i think YOUNG AMERICANS changed them for the worst. oh wells, in time maybe ill see the same people i remember from my sophomore year. :[
after seussical practice, erika, bryan, rachel, and michiyo chilled in the parking lot. bryan and i sat and we listened to michiyo's cute vivid stories. i<3 her stories.. so perfect and imaginable.
erika and rachel went home.. and TJ came. i ended up going to the korean social for korean club w/ tj. i got free pizza and soda :D so bomb. the pizza was extra greasy though.. so i felt sick afterwards. Tj's gherl came and so i met up with michiyo and bryan leaving the two love birds alone. we listened to more of michiyos stories.. and about her arranged marriage and such.
basically i learned more about michiyo which was reallllly fun. iLove the way she is .. HAHA.
bryan, michiyo, and i bummed out at the school till like 8 o clock just sitting down. we had our head to head talks in a star formation.. star gazing on the grass. we talked about random things, which made time pass by in a heart beat. bryan and i decided that we want to meet her family because they seem so interesting / funny. michiyo left and me and bryan headed towards dolphin bay to eat ground pork over rice. i drank 2 milk teas which made me sick afterwards. we went to my house afterwards.. and watched friday night wrestling.. and then bryan watched youtube videos while i texted joy and lidia. i ended up falling asleep because i was so tired from my long day. then bryan woke me up to open the gate.. so i was alone so i called joy to ask her to join our choir and tease her a bit. lmao, shes funny..
umm and yeah, said g'night to everyone! &that was basically my day.
tomorrow, i might go to a chord group outing @ the mall consisting of lidia, tj, alexis, and erika! ehh, i hope its fun. :D



well, today was fun. i learned more about michiyo and how she reminisces about such vivid childhood memories. soo cute.. HAHA.
well she basically labeled me as a little brother that she never had. &she compared me to joseph, her younger brother who is basically a mute that never talks. aha, josephs tight though.

hi sister! :D she looks so scared.

hc was alright. my date left me like 5 times but i was like.. whatevers with it. she kept going back to the table and hella people were calling me a bad date. she looked so lonely. :[
fcking ayeeee, if i could i would talk to her and see whats on her mind. probably today @ practice ill ask.
damnn yesterday, i was bumming out sick. i hate being a bitch (emo) around school. and its some what obvious when im sad iono why.. but hella people were asking if i was "okay" and it got to th e point where i was annoyed by everyone's consideration.
i hope we can stay friends.
im sure i wont dwell on this forever. fccccck.

"pssh, please. dont even let her phase you." - cindyy :]

words of encouragement.. ayee.

happy b day dad. i miss you.

i hate

-hearing my best friend cry on the phone.
-how i attached im getting to certain people.
-how my former best friend is still dating that s1lly hoe.
-how this gherl is flirting with every guy around
-how the same gherl smells like sh1t after a tuesday practice.
-how choir is coming out for me.
-when she doesnt text back and leaves me hanging till the next day. lmao.
-how i dont have a lot to say anymore.

soo i got (a)

-homecoming date named l1dia. :]
-best friend named ashley
-harmonizing hom1es in choir,,
-plans to go to knotts scary farm!
-a twin that i chill with after schoo!
-a mom that i love, and sis that i care about.
-a buck family bbygrillz, bbyjay, iceybryceytwinzors. dont even know bryce's name! HAHA. that we just made up for laughz.
-chill classes.
-chill people.

hii, junior year.

blaaah

im sprunng, ooh she got me.. doing things id never do.. :[

off to school soon.

-drama in roc.
-cutie winning my heart.
-black people in roc are pretty chill
-hahaha..

word.

CHANGES

.id love to go back to when we played as kids, but things change. That's the way it is.

"people change, everyday. change like you, we've got all the time in the world. people cry, all the time. cry like me..."

fuck this repetitive shiiiie.
well, is this just a blur in my life or are we all just changing for the worse? hopefully not,, of course not. denial is a big thing that takes time.. takes time to loosen yourself from submission. we're all at fault at one point in our life. some just never admit, yet we all just seem to please ourselves rather than each other. but at the same time we show our inconsiderate sides by the desire to only gladden ourselves.

i bet you think this song is about you!
hopefully YOUNG AMERICANs dont get entangled into this phase. dont sell out, steven. :[
iff anythingg,, check your privileges.. homie!

friday was pretty fun. i went to 1st period and then i checked in with 2nd period. i told him that im helping out with the annual welcome back assembly. anyways, turns out that ivy and lidia's class is right next to mine so i met them by my teachers door coincidentally. ahh.. haha, i have a strange attraction towards ivy. we bump hips and dance in our show choir number. AHA.. we walked to my locker to get TJ's purple shirts. we ended up practicing with the whole choir excluding gary, tj, and debra because they had to take a test for 2nd period. after that,, we went back to the choir room to chill. all the guys were having a dance sesh in the class. AHA.. i came in with some buck stomps and arm swings. then i left to go talk to lidia and ericka. so 2nd period ended and soo all of us started walking towards the stadium. i ended up sitting next to lidia and erica! hahaha,, soo cool. well i was talking to lidia mostly. umm so the hosts of the assembly introduced INFUSION show choir so we all ran up to the middle of the field.
it was hella hard to dance because the beats of the song were being repeated by an echo in the distance. i felt like i was dancing off beat. shit was weirddd,, but i heard LOUD ass people yelling my name. LOOOL! turns out that it was melissa, jeanelle, jennifer, daniela, and some other people. theyre so loudd because the music playing was like blasting in our ears. ohh and alyssa was behind the posters cheering for me HAHAHA.. shit was tripping me out while i was dancing.. i was like WTF.. who is that?!
it was funn, i talked to lidia during the rest of the rest of the assembly. well i love doing our annual welcome back assembly performance.. i get so amped by the audience. :]
anyways,, yeaah.. school was whatevers.
i hung out with bryan later on in the evening. we went to judys house.. to just lay around and talk.
things are changing.. im changing,, people are changing. im getting irritated easily by little things.. iono whats wrong w me. but damnn, i dont want things to change past this point.

good morning early september. school is pretty swell.. to tell you the truth. the only class i really dont like is 2nd period US history because its hella boring but i actually like algebra 2 better than US history. Stuart is hella funny in class.. and i crack some funnies too so i have a splendid time x]

lmao.

so 3rd period.. bryan started apologizing to me saying "sorry i talk a lot of shit.."
and i just looked at him and shrugged. its really not my problem anymore, but more of his. youu know.. DGAF! all day everyday.
i really dont like 4th period which is ACAPELLA.. another choir class. i would drop it but its barely the beginning of the year and we're just learning new things. maybe when we start performing then hopefully ill have more fun. and plus im bass section leader x] which isnt a good title for me because i dont know how to play the piano. whatevers,, at least i can copy kristie's algebra 2 hw which is next period!

after school was pretty chill. i started hanging out w lidia and her friends.. who are pretty chill. didnt get their names though.. but still. then TJ came to our table.
we were pretending like we were selling tickets.. well i was at least. hella people were coming to our brown table thinking we were selling tickets to a show.
we took some pictures.. and then i went into the girls restroom with lidia so she could charge her phone. x] i didnt know that they had electrical outlets in there. thats pretty shwayze.
well yeah, we started taking pictures in there too. HAHA.. danng fun times with my favorite sophomore??
WELL iono,, kinda told her that shes my favorite sophomore putting aside ohjoy<3 and possibly rebecca. HAHA.. ohwellllls. i was just tryna flatter her!
well i basically chilled w/ lidia until back to school night started. i got a miss call from melissa and frank. i was like oh shit.. maybe theyre here to see my perform! :]]]
and they were.. so happy! HAHA.. but yeah,, fcking aye. <3
fcking frank kept making me laugh while i was dancing w/ show choir.
good stuff! :D

well afterwards, lidia asked me to come with her to her locker.. so i was like forsure! on the way,, we encountered her mom.. i shouldve introduced myself -_____- didnt mean to come off all rude. i just didnt think of it at the time. and plus the rowland regiment band was playing.. but i said "hi" to her.
and then i asked one of the girls wearing an "ASK ME" shirt where she got her shirts. and she was all like... in the ASB office.. sadly i cant get one.. looks pretty leg1t. turns out that the girl was the infamous SACHI KAWACHI girl that beat out rebecca and joy for ASB president of 2011.

well yeah,, afterwards.. i introduced lidia to frank, cindy, and melissa. HAHA.. damnn cindy gave her a b1tch face.. forreals. i think cindy doesnt like her.. but oh wells. thats her problem. then she went home w/ her mom and me and frank walked to my locker. on the way, i said hi to sachi kawachi and her cutie friend. and asked if we could take a picture with her on her laptop but she said "NO" LOLLLLL. fckk me and frank got rejected. well i think it wasnt her laptop anyways. ALL GOOD though. i dont give a fck.
then we ate ate saigon noodle house in DB and went to rowland park and just chilled.
saiid wsupp to richard and my cousin.. richards hair grew so long O.O
he hasnt seem me since 1st semester of last year.

today was a chillday<3

happy september..!

damnn so.. crashing your mom's car pretty much sucks. losing trust sucks even more. oh wells.. i guess ill just have to earn it back the way my sister has w/ my mom millions of times.

well damnn, iono life is just whatevers for now. i gotta admit that it was perfect a week ago.. but shit happens and things changed yafeel? :]
whatevers,, as much as id like, i cant change the past. i can only learn from my mistakes for now and apply it to my future.
so ummmms.. im not really talking to crisselle as much. leanne is dating ray.. EHHHHH HAHA. okay so.. i ended up 3rd wheeling it with leanne and ray. fck that shit.. two freshmens.. flirting. fcking aye! not the best time to be third wheeling. well yeah, leanne had like last minute turn offs (attractions) so i wasnt feeling her like last minute.
but forrrrreals.. this is how it happened.. so tj, mervyn, and all the other choir guys invited me to go eat at guppis' tea house thinking that i still had a car -____-
so i told them that i had no car and they were like WTFF.. all tripping ahaha.. so we ended up walking down otterbein. so we decided to walk towards colima burger.. where i crashed my mom's car :[ . anyways.. i was walking behind the group talking to leanne.. slowly falling behind the others. and so shes like "heey alfie lets go to dolphin bay" and i was like "sure". but this other guy came too soo later i found out that they're dating.. so i was like WTFFFF third wheel status. fck that shit. so i was all calling up TJ and telling him to go to rowland park because i was "third wheel". and yeahh, now the choir guys call me third wheel :[ fcking aye! AHA.. well its whatevers now..
so today i chilled w gary and zach after school. then i walked home w/ rebecca san.. sun**.
then zach and gary picked me up to go to starbucks.. then they dropped me off.
danng iono.. junior year is chill for now. im scared of the work. haha.. I LOVE MY CLASSES. SO FUN..

well peaceeaaaasy!

hi wednesday. today was whatevers. nothing too big but it wasnt all that boring.

i drove too school again. im getting hella lazy.. aha. well today ive established the fact that my classes are pretty chill despite the work. i actually like the people in my classes this year. all the other years, ive had different people in my classes that i wasnt really familiar with.

1st period - we watched "the safety precautions of a lab" or some shit. its like my 4th time watching it.. it gets pretty repetitive in each science class. i talked with lucy, melody, mia, and jennie ho? aka TH thunder thighs?! x] as eyenn would say..

2nd period - i had to copy down each and every state of the US with the additional information on the side. it kept me busy, i have to admit. the period went by pretty fast.

3rd period - hw day in choir!! fun shit. gary and i filled out "secret singer" forms together. secret singer is basically like secret santa.
so lidia kept taking my paper and filling out spots for me like under "who are your close friends in choir?" she put her name.. lidia♥ . HAHA,, shes such a dork.. im not even that close with her but its starting to seem that way.. :] along with leanne and possibly TJ but ive always been pretty chill with him. fck that drama shit!
and under favorite color i put "the color of lidias pants. think hard! aug 27th o8." HA! soo iono if they caught the color of her pants or not. hehe..
our hw table basically consisted of all the filipinos of choir.. or most of them.
tj, lidia, leanne, and ericka. mervyn came later.. and yeah!
ericka promised that she would sing to me on my b day which was like june 25th.. and that shit passed a long time ago x]
HAHA,, so i was all bugging her.

4th period - it was whatevers. nothing really to talk about.

5th period - alg. 2 was pretty boring too. im gonna meet victoria tomorrow.. because shes crisselle's friend and victoria said she doesnt know anyone in that class. we took a placement test.. so boring. i hate placement tests..

lunch - chilled with jeanelle because she wanted to walk around but i had a sectional for choir. so we walked over there and i left her.. hahaha. i guess we're chilling tomorrow? i havent chilled with jeanelle since freshman year. after lunch.. i walked with daniela to french class.. and lidia called me over to her just so she can play with my hair. danng maan.. i looked all whipped. and iono some how hella people that i knew started surrounding me and started playing with my hair. haha,, i lost daniela for like 20 seconds.

6th period - daniela sits across the room from me in french class which is pretty gay. the class consists of a bunch of freshman which are unfortunately pretty immature. like not even on my immaturity level.. so their jokes are pretty lame. haha.. so most of the period i was like flirting with daniela from across the room. LMAO.. i was like holding up the V (vagina) sign and pretending to eat it out. then i was all biting my lips and and rolling my eyes back.. dude the teacher saw me too. lmao.. and everyone around me was confused. but yeah,, fun day.

7th period - pretty chill! i talked with vincent, kristine, aaron.. then i started talking with michele, jennifer, and sue! michele was all like "sue you have a big ass" and then fcking sue was all trying to tease me like "do you think i have a big ass? do you like that?" ehh hahaha, i was answering all nonchalantly like "ehh yeah you have a big ass.. umm its not that sexy". yeah, she has [cellulite] pretty sick if you ask me. i started talking with lucy and the other cute cholah. i forget her name. hahaha,, damn i think my teacher picks on me too much. shes a tilf though so i kind of enjoy it. LMAO!! k, yeah..

then i took home leanne after school and i chilled with eyenn for a second. it looked like bryan wanted to come along because of leanne but i was like "ehh im taking her home" and he looked all relieved. -____-
whatever.
overall, today was a good day.

hi blogspot.

tell me why i question and bryans friendship a lot? he gets so annoying sometimes and hes hella awkward.

but whatevers,, ill update this.
lidia is hella cutee! she always comes up to me in the choir room and bugs me but she acts all cute w/ it. :[
such a cutie.
anyways, i chilled with leanne today.. leanne is like bffs with lidia.. so yeah. its crazy because she started opening up to me and started telling me everything.. like problems, family etc.
i told her that i care about her and yeah,, pretty awkward but pretty cool. i love getting to know people. i kept calling her cute.. haha x]
but she really is.. even though im not into a lot of filipinos.
but yeahh, im tryna chill this week since i have a car. :]

day 2. school is tomorrow. heads up everyone x]

today was pretty wasteful; it being the last day of summer o8. i asked frank if he wanted to go to a party but we ended up not going because we were both lazy. HAHA.. well actually i went later at night and yeah. now im kind of here just blogging before school starts.

my grandpa isnt in a stable condition right now.. i talked to him today and he sounded extremely weak to the point where he was gasping for air and i could barely make out his words over the phone. the people that are handling his health say that he only has two months to live.. blah, i can only ask for a miracle. i shouldve went to church today, but i got lazy. i have this urge to go back, but my mom never accompanies me. therefore, i dont have a ride every sunday. hes the only grandfather ive had in my life, since my dad's father past away before i was born. sad to say that my children will experience the same situation when theyre born. oh well.. i miss you dad.

well the girl scene is chill i mean.. knowing that theres a girl that i can talk to every night is relaxing. i cant say that im entirely "feeling" this girl but damnn, shes slowly winning over the other thoughts in my head.
well, and i dont want to be a rebound in my other friends situation.. although ive liked her for my entire sophomore year. i tell myself that im just wasting my time with her and id rather just be a close friend at bay. its weird, how i can spend a whole year liking this girl and when im actually talking talking.. we're talking as just friends.. thats my mind set although im not sure if im leading her on. oh well, for her.

im completely bald with a little mohawk running down the equator of my head. HA,, well.. hopefully it'll grow fast because im not really feeling it. my friend itchy cut it way too short this morning. i ended up paying him 7 dollars and tipping him 3 dollars so 10 in total. damnn the cut took like 2 hours.

well im getting tired now,, i gotta pick up jj in the morning and show frank around rowland. im going to walnut tomorrow :]

peaceeeasy, lemonsqueezy.

hi blogspot.
first post right now..

so today was okay. i was with frank mostly. we picked up melissa in 2 seperate cars. i parked my car at home and we took frank's car to the concert in chino hills. surprisingly i saw 2 rowland people there; all the other people were typical looking filipinos that came for the AJ rafael concert. the ones that wear nikes and slim jeans. a lot of cuties there though, i must say!
we only stayed there for like an hour.. and frank dropped us both off. i called up bryan and i picked him at his house. prior to calling sonny, we tried calling steven because we were in the area. steven never gets to go out because of his strict parents. oh well, bryan and i headed to diamond plaza to meet up with sonny, daniel, and judy.
typical boring dinners.. i never eat.. and i think its hella boring. whatever,, i left early.

jj told me to make a blog so i did.. haha,, i love writing.

wsup life? im a junior. im not too crazed about this but im just a little disappointed on how poorly ive been doing in school for the past years. i used to exceed past everyones expectations back in elementary; but soon i realized that that was simple elementary work. i seem to doubt myself when it comes to school work. i wish i was as smart as my brother and be able to go to prestigious universities where famous icons go. but whatever, im not as smart as him but i can be as hardworking. i dont know how im gonna do this year, but im gonna try my hardest and not get lazy towards the end of the year.
this year will hopefully be swell for me since i finally have the support i need from my REAL family and the friends that ive neglected for 1 year.
the strength ill receive from my recently liberated dad and the courage that ill find in myself to actually do well this year.

hi school year, bye summer o8'.